Depressed at the age of 9
Women are 70 percent more likely than men to have depressive episodes. One in 33 children will struggle with depression.
Is there hope? Read now the story of Brenda.
In the house, I felt neglected by my mother. I always felt that my mom didn’t like me because of my father. I didn’t know anything about him, but I thought It was because I looked like him. Wherever I was at school or at the house, I felt worthless. I use to get bullied a lot as I grew up. I thought to myself “Why am I here If I’m not able to make the people around me happy?”
At the age of 13, I was introduced to weed, molly, Zanex, etc., almost all the types of drugs. Then I started to take action towards The suicidal thoughts I had. The suicidal thoughts began around the age of nine to twelve years old. My suicidal thoughts started when a person told me that I should kill myself. I then started to question myself If I was that worthless and undeserving to live. I started to cut myself since the age of 10. I always wanted to know the experience of how it felt. Afterward, I started liking the feeling, and I became addicted to it.
I had to cover my arms with bandages; then I began to cut other parts of my body– my thighs, hips, ankles, and shoulders. In the beginning, I would stop when I saw a little bit of blood and then escalated until I saw a puddle of blood.
Whenever I saw my blood, I felt relief, as if that problem no longer bothered me until it would come again. One night I swallowed a whole bottle of pills, and I felt like I was going to die. After learning how to trust, and knowing I was not alone, everything went away.
Today, I feel relaxed, calm and happy. There is no need for me to go out and party nor do drugs. My advice to the youth that are experiencing suicidal thoughts and self-harming themselves is that life is worth living.