Rejected, lonely, addicted, abused… That was me!

Rejected, lonely, addicted, abused… That was me!

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13662522_10153927589664353_2091377853_o (1)_376102619594097835I had a very abusive childhood. I experienced rejection, loneliness, and physical and emotional abuse. I never got to grow up as a normal child. At a young age, I had duties that required me to wake up at 4am to help out, and then I could get ready to go to school. I saw other kids happy and smiling, but I always isolated myself because I didn’t fit in. I would see kids with their families and I began to ask, “Where are my parents? What did I do to not feel loved and needed?” My mother left me with my siblings, who treated me like a slave. At school, children would make fun of me saying, “Ewww, Black, eewww!” I thought that I left all that back home and I would never get to see people like that, but it seemed to have followed me. I went to High School and that’s where I met the wrong friends; I was introduced to smoking pot, cigarettes, and drinking. That’s when I discovered my “freedom from pain,” which I thought was through using drugs. For 12 years, I was heavily addicted. I began to date an addict and even started to sell drugs so I could score myself some for free.I was molested, and I couldn’t tell anyone. So, I exposed all of my anger to anyone in my path. I was filled with hate and resentment. My self-esteem was very low; I hit rock bottom and was severely depressed. I was tired of my life being the same; I noticed that I only created more problems, and I knew that I needed to change. About 2 years ago, God finally put me in a place where I had no choice but to focus on Him – The Universal Church. Here, I chose to turn to God, even though I felt worthless to the world and in my own eyes, but God did something miraculous; He transformed me! Today, I left my old life behind, and I am no longer the same. I put in practice what I learned in the meetings at the church and overcame the addictions that harmed me for 12 years.

I was molested, and I couldn’t tell anyone. So, I exposed all of my anger to anyone in my path. I was filled with hate and resentment. My self-esteem was very low; I hit rock bottom and was severely depressed. I was tired of my life being the same, and I knew that I needed to change. About 2 years ago, God finally put me in a place where I had no choice but to focus on Him – The Universal Church. There, I chose to turn to God, even though I felt worthless to the world and in my own eyes, but God did something miraculous – He transformed me! I received the help I needed to begin my healing process from the traumas, the anger, and the emotional pain. Today, I left my old life behind, and I am no longer the same. I learned to love and value myself. I put in practice what I learned in the meetings at the church and I overcame the addictions that harmed me for 12 years. Today, I am happy and free.

Birzaf, from New Zealand

 

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